A great day had by all.....

Well I shouldn't say all but, most. Josh had a pretty crappy day at work and Hudson had a regular ol' day but Railey and I had a girls day and a great time! We had so much fun that I barely thought about how much I am not looking forward to having the medi-port put in on Thursday. Until now...now that it's bedtime I am thinking about how much I do not feel like being put under the knife again. I hate how I feel like crap after the anestesia (however it's spelled). I hate feeling so vulnerable. Having every nurse and doc come up and ask the same questions over and over...because that's what they have to do. I hate that Josh has to wait in a waiting room for hours and hours, although I am sure it may be better than being at work :)
Other than that I am kindof excited that the chemo won't start right away because of the holiday this weekend. I am anxious to get rid of this cancer but I am also very apprehensive about the treatments. In a way I feel like I am fine why mess with me but I know that I am not...that is hard to accept. For so long I didn't realize that I was feeling lazy and crappy for a reason. I just thought I was getting old and worn down...I know this sounds silly for a 27 year old but I didn't think it was because I actually had something like cancer. I knew that I was having the fevers and stuff but I just didn't recognize that as anything big. I guess you never can really prepare yourself to find out that you have cancer. So you realize all the symptoms once you find out something is wrong..surprise...surprise. Anyway I gotta go update the kid blog with some photos from girls day and stuff.
More to come.....
~regan

I just found this on another blog....

This is a link that shows you the PET scan machine....I will write more later about the crappy test and why it is interesting to see it.

~regan

http://www.medical.siemens.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?productId=16879&storeId=10001&langId=-1&catalogId=-1&catTree=100001,12788,12756*497259760&level=0

My Joshy and Me

Me and my sweet babies

Mama and Hudson

I found one.....

I found a place to blog, blog, blog about my cancer. I am learning so much from reading the blogs of other people that have Lymphoma so this is interesting already. I have so much to learn about it, so now my friends and family that are interested can learn right along with me. I guarentee that my blog on babiesonline is way more exciting than this so after you get depressed reading this you can pop over there and check out my beautiful children and brighten up your mood. That's what I do anyway.
I am so excited to have found this and now I have somewhere to talk about the things on my mind. Because I don't always like to actually "talk" about things but I like to get them out. I like to ask questions that I don't necessarily want an answer to but I just want to ask it anyway. Like I said.....just to get it out.
Look forward to hearing much more....... regan